Silent Love

You just sit there laughing so innocently, smiling and laughing contently like there's not a care in the world. But i know better.

Don't you realise what you've done? You've charmed your way into unsuspecting hearts. But when people try to get close you close up and shut out yourself like you don't want people to know you, but don't you know that I really, really do?

Sweet, that's what people say when they see you. I wish you were just that to me not just another face in this vast wide world. But that's not the fact, the world is so small and we only live so nearby and yet so far to do anything. When I'm not thinking about you I start to wonder. Why do I think about you? Just to waste my time for something I just cannot reach? I adored you, I still do but still fear strikes my heart whenever I think of you. Why do we want what we cannot have? Is this fate's way of teaching us how life and love should be? If it is then fate is cruel, for tempting innocent hearts to ponder where they would never besiege just to find that inner peace. The peace that everyone longs to feel inside. The warmth of love.

The time that was ours has past, but really would it have lasted? Who knows really, but curiosity holds me dear whenever you are remembered. Your name lingers in my head. Why won't these feelings go away! Just leave me alone for goodness sake! Leave me alone. I am happy where I am. But then I wonder why you are still in my mind, seeking what was left behind.

My heart races, my attention raised, adrenaline rushes through my veins when you talk. Weird, at first, but the feeling sinks as fast as it rises. You are my first, true love ever & no one can take that away from me. No one. We may have lost the spark, the chemistry. But what we shared no one can comprehend, for we did not share anything that was true..

A single word was never spoken but your words linger inside my soul. For you are the being I can only dream of but can never possess for we do not always get what we want but what we need. I want you, you are what I need. You will forever remain in my thoughts; that cannot be denied. You are true, you are real, but we can never be. Because you are first and foremost, my silent love.