A Blog Not Me
Another blog, another first (and possibly last) entry. Well, maybe not exactly first. I signed up here sometime last year, posted some stuff. Then i left it to rot, together with the rest of my other spur-of-the-moment blogs. Then, for some reason, they decide to reset my account (no prize for guessing why). So yeah, first post all over again. Who gonna read this crap anyway??
I enjoy reading blogs. But i don't really blog myself. I've always toyed with the idea but ultimately, i let it go because i never really have anything worthwhile to say. I always wonder at the people who keep a very regular blog. Many blogs are boring because they're all about "what i did today" and whatever. Then there are those that are written by dumb asses, catering to the even more dumb masses. Thier blogs are plain stupid and a waste of time, really. Maybe i'm just hard to please. I can hear it now - people bitching to me "Oh, let's see YOU make a blog then, smart ass". Whatever. It's sad when people think a blog represents everything of a person. You think you know a person inside out just because you visit his/her blog x times a day. Show me a person whose can safely say his blog personifies his true character and innermost thoughts, and i'll show you a liar. When i started blogging some time ago, it was largely to pass time and voice some opinions while throwing in a couple of rants. A small part of me, however, was selfishly hoping for attention, admiration and affirmation; a shallow attitude i try so hard to abandon. Don't tell me you've never thought the same thing. Narcissist. People have asked me why i don't blog more often. Some say that a guy like me should have plenty to blog about; that i write nice, insightful entries. What do you mean 'a guy like me'? How well do you think you know me? I don't really blog, but if i did........no, really. I don't think i'll ever blog seriously. For one, i don't have the discipline to update regularly. Even if i did, and people actually started reading my blog, i always start to feel some pressure to post something worth reading, and that is not something i like to subject myself to.
I don't feel compelled to write down my personal feelings, thoughts and ideas in a public place. I write them down in a private space. Still do. That's where i find closure, where i tear down the walls, rip off the facade, where i can truly write from my heart and be, well, me. You don't really have that when you blog. Like i said, a blog can never represent everything of a person. No one blog is a real reflection of its author's real character and real personality.
Don't read too much into what i wrote up there. I was probably rambling utter nonsense, like i always do whenever i really should to be studying. "Productive procrastination". It's good stuff =). Exam's are creeping ever so closer. I'm scared out of my mind, i'm depressed, i'm stressed out.
Sigh.That's it. Back to reading blogs (productive procrastination, in case you didn't know) :D
Another blog, another first (and possibly last) entry. Well, maybe not exactly first. I signed up here sometime last year, posted some stuff. Then i left it to rot, together with the rest of my other spur-of-the-moment blogs. Then, for some reason, they decide to reset my account (no prize for guessing why). So yeah, first post all over again. Who gonna read this crap anyway??
I enjoy reading blogs. But i don't really blog myself. I've always toyed with the idea but ultimately, i let it go because i never really have anything worthwhile to say. I always wonder at the people who keep a very regular blog. Many blogs are boring because they're all about "what i did today" and whatever. Then there are those that are written by dumb asses, catering to the even more dumb masses. Thier blogs are plain stupid and a waste of time, really. Maybe i'm just hard to please. I can hear it now - people bitching to me "Oh, let's see YOU make a blog then, smart ass". Whatever. It's sad when people think a blog represents everything of a person. You think you know a person inside out just because you visit his/her blog x times a day. Show me a person whose can safely say his blog personifies his true character and innermost thoughts, and i'll show you a liar. When i started blogging some time ago, it was largely to pass time and voice some opinions while throwing in a couple of rants. A small part of me, however, was selfishly hoping for attention, admiration and affirmation; a shallow attitude i try so hard to abandon. Don't tell me you've never thought the same thing. Narcissist. People have asked me why i don't blog more often. Some say that a guy like me should have plenty to blog about; that i write nice, insightful entries. What do you mean 'a guy like me'? How well do you think you know me? I don't really blog, but if i did........no, really. I don't think i'll ever blog seriously. For one, i don't have the discipline to update regularly. Even if i did, and people actually started reading my blog, i always start to feel some pressure to post something worth reading, and that is not something i like to subject myself to.
I don't feel compelled to write down my personal feelings, thoughts and ideas in a public place. I write them down in a private space. Still do. That's where i find closure, where i tear down the walls, rip off the facade, where i can truly write from my heart and be, well, me. You don't really have that when you blog. Like i said, a blog can never represent everything of a person. No one blog is a real reflection of its author's real character and real personality.
Don't read too much into what i wrote up there. I was probably rambling utter nonsense, like i always do whenever i really should to be studying. "Productive procrastination". It's good stuff =). Exam's are creeping ever so closer. I'm scared out of my mind, i'm depressed, i'm stressed out.
Sigh.That's it. Back to reading blogs (productive procrastination, in case you didn't know) :D
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